Whenever you have an important date set in your calendar it seems that the world will throw everything it's got at you, just to really see how bad you want it. I knew life was a bit of a rollercoaster but these last few weeks, a crazy patch, made me wonder if I was going to fly off the rails.
When we go to work on ourselves, its important to be open to the road ahead. Normally one would relate 'working on yourself' or 'growing as a person' to getting better, whatever better looks like? Happier, a more fulfilling life, openness and more opportunities. But the road forward its not always as clear cut as we first think. Remembering that we have both a light side and a shadow side.
Social media creates a warped perception of reality. Everyone chooses what they want to put out into the world. If we are not careful we easily fall into the comparison trap by seeing what someone chooses to post as their real life. If we engage in this activity too often we start to turn our focus outwards on the others and not our self.
There I was, lying empty, motionless, what felt like soul-less in the musty smelling bedroom at my parents house. The room wasn't lived in any more (kind of what my body felt like right now), I left there when I was 22. What seemed like a shoe box held all of my (physical) life, bags of clothes that I hadn't opened for three and a half years, boxes wall to wall full of who know what. I couldn't believe all these things belonged to me and I didn't know where to start in trying to sort it all out. My insides truly felt empty as I reached for my phone to numb my mind. Only to find my Facebook news feed flooded with photos of the latest 17cm snowfall, a place that seemed so close but in an instant had now become my old life on the other side of the world.